stop hiding.

Just not the same anymore :(

2011-09-26T01:38:00.001+08:00

We both know it. When we talk now, it just isn't the same, and it gets awkward after awhile.

Probably we'll become the most familiar strangers ever.

:(

2011-08-28T23:43:00.001+08:00

Omg fking hell.
Still haven't lost any weight even after all these trainings :(

FOREVER FATTTTT.

I WANNA LOSE WEIGHT ! TO LIKE 50 !

Hahaha :(

2011-08-19T23:21:00.001+08:00

Come back. Won't you ?

what's happening to me ?

2011-07-31T13:37:00.001+08:00

I find it scary. It's like I no longer know who I am anymore.

Became antisocial, words getting lesser and lesser, gets tired easily and losing passion for things that I used to love.

What's wrong with me ?!?!

Help me get my life back on track god. Please.

it. hurts.

2011-07-09T21:58:00.001+08:00

You must be happily celebrating your victory with her now. From the bottom of my heart, good job, you really did well, and you deserve it..

Gonna stuff in my earpiece and go for a long run, all alone, with ghost of our memories flashing through my head, whether I like it or not.

I need more time.

2011-07-07T01:33:00.001+08:00

"someday, someday I'll find someone better than you."

why

2011-07-04T00:14:00.001+08:00

Why do I have a bad feeling about this.
Why this sickening sinking feeling inside.

DAMN IT DAMN DAMN DAMN. :(
URGHH ASDFGHJKLI HATE THAT I STILL GET AFFECTED BY YOU.

Not with her, please, not with someone I'm close to.

I wish it was me being there for you :'(

2011-06-08T16:20:00.001+08:00

That Should Be Me

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy

Do you do what you did, what you did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me?
'Cause baby, I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that that should be me
That should be me

You said you needed a little time for my mistakes
It's funny how you use that time to have me replaced
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies?
Whatcha doing to me?

You're taken' him where we used to go
Now if you're trying to break my heart
It's working 'cause you know

That, that should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that should be me

I need to know should I fight for our love or disown?
It's getting harder to shield this pain in my heart, ooh

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that that should be me, ooh

Holding your hand, that should be me
The one making you laugh, oh baby
Oh, that should be me, yeah

That should be me, giving you flowers
That should be me, talking for hours
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me

Never should've let you go
I never should've let you go
That should be me
Never should've let you go
That should be me

Never should've let you go
Never should've let you go
That should be me

hurtzzzzz :)

2011-06-06T20:43:00.001+08:00

What you did was right, what I said was also right.
Time heals everything.
You took my advice, wasn't suppose to be for me, but. I got a taste of it.

had to force myself to avoid your gaze everytime you look my way.

WHY.

2011-06-02T23:53:00.001+08:00

Is this a joke ? Just when I was looking through all our past convos and was closing it cos I couldn't take it, and your name had to pop up on the screen, staring right back at me.

And not just once, this happened many times already. Everytime when I force myself not to look at your profile or just looking at out photos, you, out of the blue, will pop out and either start a chat or smth. And I don't do that often too ? WHY PEOPLE UP THERE YOU ALSO SO HEARTLESS :( LET ME FORGET HIM CANNOT IS IT.

Sigh, who can I blame, when I obviously still miss you. And you obviously miss another girl. Another girl who's a c_______.

what am I doing.

2011-06-02T14:43:00.001+08:00

What have I been doing to my life ?
Should have went for the Adam khoo training sessions. I listened to you, and I crushed my own dreams on my hands. My very own stupid hands.

And I lost you.

isn't it very obvious alr ?

2011-05-31T09:11:00.001+08:00

Looks like you really found the one you are looking for this time round.
Hope you'll be happy. That's the last thing I can ask for from you.
I know you'll be.

though I'm still disappointed about yesterday. You clearly forgot about 30th may. :/ why would you anyway. You already have another special date with someone else. Sigh.

absent

2011-05-29T17:05:00.001+08:00

Match should be over now.

Hope it went well and nothing happened to you.
Didn't go. Still trying to run away.
Still running.

From you.

sigh.

2011-05-27T02:28:00.001+08:00

Cos talking to you feels so different now :/ all the awkward pauses and silence. Hate it yet can't do anything about it. Just ain't like before. Just isn't the same :(

things are different.

2011-05-26T20:29:00.001+08:00

What used to be a happy video now breaks me into a million pieces.

I miss you, me, us. The us one month ago.

:'[

2011-05-21T02:43:00.001+08:00

Just the thought of you staying up late to talk to another her makes my heart wrench and stomach cringe so much it hurts. Thinking how it used to be us pains me even more.

Why is it so easy for you ? Why does it seem like you can so effortlessly forget me and throw me aside ? Am I really that insignificant ?

It hurts because you ended it all so abruptly, when I just started getting used to you, thought everything was fine, then suddenly bam and you were gone. No replies no nothing. I didn't even know what happened.

And now because there wasn't a proper ending, you leave me here, hanging, falling :'(

I'm sorry, if its cos I probe too much into your life, been too paranoid about you with other girls, I'm really sorry. I know it was stupid and redundant.

If only things can be like before again. I'd give anything for things to go back to before. Cos I miss you and I really wish I could be there esp the past few days when you were down. I typed so many texts, ready to be sent out, but eventually it all got backspaced. All because i was too cowardy, i was afraid. And i regretted, cos i really wanted to cheer you up if i could. Just like the letter i took back. I'm just a stupid coward :( but i miss you. Really do. :(((((

Hope she can make you laugh now. Hope she can make your day, make you happy.

Hate it when I lose a close friend like you :( urgh D:

when we are at the end.

2011-05-11T14:38:00.001+08:00

I know, I can feel that this is coming to an end and we won't be like how we used to be anymore. All those meet ups we had that I know I'll never forget, late night conversations on the phone, chats till someone falls asleep, texts we exchanged, it will be over soon.

It will be because I'm leaving, I won't be there till 6am anymore, won't be there to hear you play your guitar, won't be there to fall asleep and wait for your phonecall, won't be there to give you morning calls, won't be there to be late for breakfast, won't be there to tickle your arms, won't be there to buy you strepsils for your performance, won't be there to laugh at the straw hats we bought, won't be there to play situational games, won't be there to go all the way to your house then cab home, won't be there to walk all the shortest routes with you or circle round the same area for 78461582 times, won't be there to threaten you to put your pikachu into milo's cage, won't be there at red mountain, won't be there to stop you from doing things that'll injured yourself, won't be there to annoy you, won't be there to make your day, won't be there for everything and so many more things.

Not that I don't want to stay, you don't know how much I want to be doing those things I said above, every single day, but it seems like you are getting bored and everything I do, every text I send seems to be making you tired instead of the other way round, I dont want you to talk to me cos you have to, but because cos you want to. There's still so many things I wanted to do with you, going to USS, going jamming, seeing you perform, let you see Milo, see your coco, challenge level 30 buffalo wings, competing on NBA. But it's all never gonna happen now. :/

I really don't know what happened, whether it's cos I did sth wrong or because of sth I said, whether im not good enough, or whether it's you running away or simply just because you just got tired of this, tired of me, I never got to get an explanation.

But I'm really gonna miss you and all those times. I know I will. will you ?

Sigh.

change

2011-05-11T14:18:00.001+08:00

On the same road, at the same place. Just different timing, but everything's changed, it's all over. Didn't even get the chance to say a proper goodbye.

speedy

2011-05-06T21:22:00.001+08:00

Funny how fast things can change ain't it ?

confession

2011-05-05T23:10:00.001+08:00

Why am I always the one who gets played ? :'(

This is effing painful.

break down those walls.

2011-05-02T22:15:00.001+08:00

I wished you’d open up. I wish you’d tell me or even anyone about your problems, share the burden, make you feel better. It’s hard to see you like that, always happy on the front but I know deep inside you’ve got so many problems you are suffocating.

I dont know why, I swear I have no idea why. But it actually kinda hurts to see you like that :/ and I can’t continue to be all laughing and joking with you, when I know late at night when you’re all alone, you’re gonna face it yourself and let it haunt it you over and over again.

You’re not alone. You know that right ?

P.S. What can I do to make you smile ? :/

):

2011-05-01T11:58:00.001+08:00

Tahw dluohs I od ot ekam sgniht og kcab ekil erofeb ?

why do I even have that thought to begin with.

2011-04-21T23:07:00.001+08:00

Thought I meant sth to you, until I see you treating everyone the same way. :c

Its always me thinking too much everytime. EVERYTIME.

sigh, what to do.

too fast.

2011-04-20T19:16:00.001+08:00

Why must you be another Y. You are just like him, giving other people hopes, giving them illusions, making them think you might feel sth for them too then when they are falling deeper, you leave and throw whats left of them, all shattered at a side.

Do you know how much it hurts for them ? I do. So now I have to learnt, learn how to keep away, so I wouldn't end up the same as them.

I don't know how, I really don't know how you manage to do this. It's only been weeks, not even a month, and your absence can make me feel uneasy, it's scary, it's really scary.

I know you still can't forget her, I know you still haven't let go and I know before you do, nothing's possible.

Tell you a secret.
I think I'm not fit enough to be with you. Neither do I think you'll ever consider me.

That being said, I have no idea why am I still feeling so afghsbysntshaqtsnz inside :( I really don't understand why. And I hate this feeling very very much.
*sigh*

Please let this feeling go away.

WHY.

2011-03-21T22:58:00.001+08:00

Having that kind of shattered feeling inside again. I'm not weak.

I'm not right ?

:/

huge storm.

2011-03-21T20:11:00.001+08:00

Right now, all I want to do is just curl up infront of my window and watch the rain pour.

at work !

2011-03-21T14:39:00.001+08:00

So bored at workzzzzz.
There's actually alot of things to do, but I'm feeling real restless :/
Still feeling v lost and directionless.
I need a goal to keep me going. :<

Been working 7 days in a row OMGZ.
Really crazy eh ? Can't wait for Vietnam trip, just gonna pray and hope it's going to be fun. Shall take the chance to take a break, I need one badly !

Go Vietnam buy straw hats. (Y)
Anyone wants straw hats can let me know, I take order LOL

OH YEAH. Must settle uni application stuffs soon. D:

Sigh. The reason for all my headaches.

BYEZXZX.

maybe ?

2011-03-19T01:51:00.001+08:00

.

Let's take a leap of faith.

sigh.

2011-03-12T22:27:00.001+08:00

Trying to survive and live on with a sore throat :/

Fail fail fail.

I really pray for those in japan to be alright.

P.S. Regrets are the only things we admit to yet unable to change.

why my life so sad.

2011-03-02T12:18:00.001+08:00

I really dont want to play CP :(
Damn sad.
Plus results haven't come out.
Adds on to all the crap.

Sigh, why is my life like this.

why

2011-02-18T00:43:00.001+08:00

You're perfect bb :)

I don't understand

2011-02-07T22:29:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I really envy guys.
One pat on the back or a brotherly hug solves everything.
No bitching behind each other, no hard feelings, forgive and forget.
And definitely no act like everything's okay but actually still backstabbing each other.

Maybe that's why I hate girls who are like that. You were the one who caused all the trouble, yet pushed it all to me after your victory. And now, acting like the victim when you were in fact the mastermind.

I decided to forget it and solve everything, instead got slapped in the face right back. You never wanted this to be solved did you ? All along you wanted to bring me down, your ultimate motive. Admit it, it's partially true ain't it ?

I want us to be friend's really, but if you just can't, then well, it's a shame. I thought we could talk it out, like grown ups.

P.S. Maybe I was wrong, maybe a person can really change. Humans.

._.

2011-02-07T19:46:00.001+08:00

I don't want to know where you're going.

NEW YEAR !

2011-02-04T00:34:00.001+08:00

Too cute !! :DD saw you like last Sunday and you were awesome :)

Hwaiting !

Wth.

2011-01-28T23:15:00.001+08:00

Everyone agreed initially, and now when suddenly it all seems so ma fan and all, it becomes my fault heh.

Sigh. Humans.

Complicated

2011-01-23T13:41:00.001+08:00

Why do I have a suspicion that the reason why I'm tearing isn't wholly because of my toothache ? P.S I think the pain might have transferred itself somewhere else.

Sigh

2010-12-27T21:05:00.001+08:00

What used to be mine ain't mine anymore.
Sigh.

What's the point.

Not perfect. No one is.

2010-11-22T18:40:00.001+08:00

Perfect lyrics
Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise
I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

Making every kind of silence, it takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I wrong

I know that I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

When you're caught in a lie and you've got nothing to hide
When you've got nowhere to run and you've got nothing inside
It tears right through me, you thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my, just myself
Just myself, myself, just myself

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

SS3 !

2010-11-20T23:02:00.001+08:00

I want to be on that stage instead of standing below it.

so that i can bring yesung home.
Hahaha. SS3 !!!!! 예성 !
Too exciting :)

Econs econs econs. Gogogo !

Hello

2010-11-20T08:25:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna get ss3 ticketssssss ! Woooooooots ! :D

P.S superficial.

No truth.

2010-11-17T23:01:00.001+08:00

I'm scared. 2 more weeks.

You need to focus yimei. Focus.

Dying slowly inside.

2010-10-13T20:34:00.001+08:00

Aching for a hug or just some words of comfort.Someone to tell me it will be alright. But well. What can I expect when i'm the one that's shutting everyone else out from my world. But i'm really dying little by little inside.I have so much to say, yet I don't know who I can tell.Everyone's either as busy as I am or the one that I used to talk to now has got new friends. Can't even be bothered to check twitter alr. Maybe i'm too stressed ?Maybe I will. Maybe I'll soon just concentrate on my stuff and cut off from everyone. Idk. I really don't know.

Thinking about life.

2010-10-11T23:07:00.001+08:00

Only left around 27 days to alevels.
Won't say i'm that prepared. But I've been working hard.
Kinda sets me thinking what I really want for my future and why am I studying so hard for.
Does a degree really guarantee my life ?

I don't really have any idea.
All I know is. I know I may be ambitious. But I don't like and I refuse to lead the typical 9 to 5 kind of life.
自己的路我会自己走出来。

Dreams ain't exactly unattainable. Right ?

Work hard then peeps.
~~Falling asleep~~.

18th year into my life.

2010-10-04T22:49:00.001+08:00

Not celebrated my birthday for the past 7 years alr. Finally this year free from exams (temporary) and went out to dinner with family and friends :)

Really thank you for all your wishes and cards and presents :) I really treasure each and everyone of them.

Your msg to me completes everything too :D thank you ! I'll work really really hard to get into your school :)

Right now, I just want to fight and not leave any regrets.

Dreams are still there, and I'll pursue then after alevels.

Gogogo ! wttttttttttt. Hehe.

Today.

2010-09-27T02:51:00.001+08:00

It used to be a special day.

Broken.

2010-09-14T15:00:00.001+08:00

You can't outrun me.
You can't bring me down.
Only I can break myself.
So I refuse to give up. Refuse to slow down.
I will pull through this.

You're my inspiration :)

2010-09-08T13:41:00.001+08:00

I want to be just like you. And with you :}

에 성 ^^

2010-09-05T21:43:00.001+08:00

Your smile never fails to make me happy :)

Just so you know.

2010-08-23T22:13:00.001+08:00

That day after you left school, I went into your class and picked up the broken fragments of your heart and brought it home. It didn't get cleared away by any cleaners, it's with me.

I kept every single piece of our memories, from your the broken hp strap to your photo to the pick you gave.

I still remember those late night conversations and those bus rides.
It's not that I can't let go, but rather, it's just how much I treasure those days.
Cuz you were the only one who could make me feel this way.

I think you're getting on well with your life now, I want you to. I really hope someone else comes along and treats you genuinely, treat you like what you deserve.

Somewhere deep down inside, I know that's where you'll always live. As a part of my fondest memories.

:)

Mask.

2010-08-10T02:05:00.001+08:00

I shouldn't assume.
Assuming and expecting.
It ruins everything.

I used to be so sensitive to people, knowing when they feel uncomfortable or unhappy. But now.
I think eventually I got tired of caring about people and yet when I am not right they don't give a damn.
And unknowingly, I've became like one of them.
Sometimes I know it actually, know that something's not right. But I didn't bother to ask or think further into it. Cos I just assume. And i'm really tired.
Of giving yet not receiving the same thing that I gave others.

I know I should ask what people can give me. But I'm human too, and I get tired. I make mistakes.

I hate it when I hurt others cos of my own tiredness and I know apologizing don't work cos they'll forever rmb what you've done to them. But I really don't mean it.

Slap yourself awake bitch. You're not living in a dream.

Self reflection @ 2.04 in the morning.

XD

2010-08-06T21:07:00.001+08:00

HAPPY GIRL IS ME ALREADY ! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! NUS NUS ! GO YIMEI GO GO GO !

95 more days.

2010-08-05T22:17:00.001+08:00

When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.

Go away.

2010-08-01T20:29:00.001+08:00

I hate getting looked down at.
I am so going to prove all of you wrong.
You'll regret for saying those things.
Regret for not choosing me.

Thanks for giving me this motivation.
Never will I get looked down again.
Fucking never.

What can I do ?

2010-07-31T01:41:00.001+08:00

Why do I feel like everyone's leaving my side one by one ?

Suddenly, I feel so alone. Like no one's there anymore. Like there isn't any one I can talk to, I can't lean to. Not even my sis cos she's always busy now.

Fuck. Maybe this is life. People come and leave. Maybe I don't deserve anyone at all.

I don't want to hurt anyone really. I should leave then I guess.

The word u-turn and sucks keep ringing in my ears. Ultimate fuck.

Wrong

2010-07-22T02:07:00.001+08:00

You cannot do this yimei.
You know it's not right.
Come on. Think straight.
Evil thoughts go away.
Goodnight.

I miss those days when I could spot you around the school and meet you on the train. If only you are still in school now :<

Motivation.

2010-07-20T22:51:00.001+08:00

永不回头

镜子里的我变得颓废
布满双手的茧以及我艰苦的磨练
包袱从来不敢松懈
看着自己的脸要撑下去等待机会
多少人半途而废多少人被现实摧毁
但伴随着时间灰飞烟灭
但我不是个泛泛之辈
对自己的期待
不能放弃沉默和违背
每一个白天严格的锻炼
每一个黑夜我辗转难眠
我知道自己不能白来这个世界
我努力过每一秒知道你想实现
胜利它在哪人生潇洒闯荡突破计划层层
关卡我注定不是一家
希望它在哪大风大浪阻挡
不挣扎不害怕没差我已蓄势待发
生命是一场战斗（胜者为王败者为寇）
我出手征服对手（绝不退后永不回头）
生命是一场战斗（胜者为王败者为寇）
我出手拼到最后（绝不退后我永不回头）
别担心到现在已变成等侯
我们开始奔跑像是单程的车票
列车一站一站停靠现在下车太早
只有前进才能到远方的目标
机会他同时迟到开过的人后悔到老
而成功在哪里我只想靠自己找到
这条路不能退后不能回头
不到最后不知道谁是真正的高手
因为生命悲欢离合没有人能逃走
只好将一切喜怒哀乐都抛到脑后
之前在拼个一次就看我出手
这一生我决定向前走永不回头
胜利它在哪人生潇洒闯荡突破计划层层
关卡注定不是一家
希望它在哪大风大浪阻挡
不挣扎不害怕没差我以蓄势待发
生命是一场战斗（胜者为王败者为寇）
我出手征服对手（绝不退后永不回头）
生命是一场战斗（胜者为王败者为寇）
我出手拼到最后（绝不退后我永不回头）

Gogogo.

Life

2010-07-19T20:26:00.001+08:00

This is life. It brings you the things you've ever wanted when you least expects it and after you already gave up, got tired of expecting it. It brings you down even further when you thought everything has already been bad enough. Make you happy, give you hope when you thought everything's gone, when you thought everything's ended. Just when you think you can start over again, it proves you wrong, ending those hopes you held.

This is life, whether you like it or not. But hell no. I'd find my way, i'll overcome it all. I'll go against everything and lead life the way I want. I'll make things happen, I won't wait. I refuse to.

Your scent and the feeling of your arms tight around me still lingers...

Hmt.

2010-07-18T23:46:00.001+08:00

I wonder how it would be if this happened 2months ago.

So...

2010-07-14T00:25:00.001+08:00

Do I still get what I was promised ? (: haha.

So touched cos I just received my notes from my tuition teacher. He actually sent via letter to my house ! Gan dong max.

Just realized that nothing's ever gonna be the same again. I'm making the change, and i'm happy. (: shall strive hard and really work hard for once.

Gogogo~! :D

Idk.

2010-07-10T00:16:00.001+08:00

Maybe I was scared when you said those words. Idk.
I feel tired. Do you ?

I think I just need more sleep.

Budden

2010-07-06T23:42:00.001+08:00

But i'm really happy cos SHINEe coming back soon !! Wheeeee~ haha.

Alright. I feel better after ranting everything just now. Maybe what I said isn't entirely true, but that's all I heard so. Yeah. I just don't want those around me to get into the picture. I'm protective of them much. That's all.

Say what you want. As long as I know it isn't true, that's all that matters.

Of course, shinee and suju and others matters too ! Wahahahaha. Can't wait to see my girls tmrw for movie ! ESP NANA ! <3 6years alr. Woots !

Sigh.

2010-07-06T23:25:00.001+08:00

I want someone to pat my head now and tell me it's alright. Anyone. :( I'm stressed. Like really stressed. You won't understand unless you are in my position. With so many eyes on you and expectations on your back. Sometimes it feels even hard to just breathe.

And why are those people so free. Why they want to know so much about my life ? I heard some check my fb everyday ? For what ? Best is some went to infer things which ain't even true and starts spreading it. Win already then. We don't even talk in real life or even had any form of communication before so how much do you actually know about me, or rather, how well enough do you know me to say things like that ? And I don't even know some of you. ._. I'm NOT trying to act popular or whatsoever. Just kind of angry cos it drags my friends down too and they didn't do anything. Maybe i'm just feeling vexed. Heh. I don't know. Exam stress. Sigh.

I really wonder where you get your courage from sometimes. You are so brave. Really. Well, at least you dare to fight for what you want. Not afraid to let anyone or even the one know how you feel. Unlike me. Been like that since forever. Don't dare to express my true feelings for anything.

Alright. I should study.

Wheeee~

2010-06-24T11:45:00.000+08:00

Good things must share :D hehe. Yesung is cute like crazyyyy.

Midyears is shit. I regret/don't regret going Korea. Mixed feelings. -.-

I promised and I swear i'll return next year ! Koreaaaaaaa :D dreamt that I was still in Seoul then woke up to realise reality sucks. Sigh.

I'm surprised at myself. Really. Doesn't matter anymore. Even i'm shocked.

LOL @ Mickey mouse shirts. Hahaha. Cool though (:

Been long since I feel this relieved. :D

P.S. Hmmm. Know what ? You don't have text me anymore. You really like sending msges even though you don't get replies ? Lol. Anything, up to you. Just so you know, I didn't tell anyone about it, don't worry. And btw, it's over. (:

Thought it through.

2010-06-20T15:17:00.001+08:00

Thank you. For always looking out for me. I know, I just dont say it. Thank you. I'll take more notice of you too. Really. You don't deserve to be treated badly.

1 week left. I should study.

._.

2010-06-16T04:41:00.001+08:00

Day and night. This has got to stop.

Korea !!

2010-06-07T21:53:00.000+08:00

Korea tmrwwwwww !
But don't have the mood. Sigh.
Think it's cos of midyears.
Damn frigging sian. Why now go overseas. Zzz.

Got to bring work there to do also. OMG. eat shit !

Bye.

P.S. I hope things will be better after 7 days. 7 days without any communication with you. ._. should be fine. I'll be fine.

2010-06-05T01:35:00.001+08:00

罗志祥 - 第二顺位

一直是我陪你去躲回忆里的雨
你无心的叹息有心碎的声音
他的好他的坏他的不安定
他的故事是我和你爱情里的乌云

从我爱上爱他的你那个瞬间起
一直是雨天你只爱雨天我用伞保护你
亲吻着你苦涩味道的微笑
闭着眼睛我明白你想念他的秘密

我一直在第二顺位爱着你
一直从雨天一直到阴天
一直到晴天你逃离过去
我一直在第二顺位等着你
一直从昨天一直到今天
一直到永远我相信是我最爱你

聆听你说抱歉多过你说我爱你
你困在雨里我困在雨里我的伞湿淋淋
『没关系』是我最常说的一句
就让我等就算我冷至少我陪着你

我一直在第二顺位爱着你
一直从雨天一直到阴天
一直到晴天你逃离过去
我一直在第二顺位等着你
一直从昨天一直到今天
一直到永远我相信是我最爱你

我一直在第二顺位爱着你
一直从雨天一直到阴天
一直到晴天你逃离过去
我一直在第二顺位等着你
一直从昨天一直到今天
一直到永远我相信是我最爱你

P.S. Goodbye is the hardest thing to say to someone who means the world to you, especially when goodbye isn’t what you want.

sigh

2010-05-25T18:08:00.008+08:00

i know i'm this is a damn stupid reason to feel unhappy but i also dont know why lah !
i know its in the past. but. urgh, cant figure out whats wrong with me.
maybe its cos i dont think the same thing happened for me ?

I DONT KNOW MY GOD WHY ARE ALL THESE THINGS FILLING UP MY ALREADY MEMORY FULL EXPLODING SOON HEAD.

i need to focus, focus, focus.
was really depress ytd cos mr leong keep suaning me in class.
thanks alot ah leong, rubbing salt to my already ultra deep wound.
i just cant do well in maths. maybe i'm not putting enough effort but i just cant do well.
not like i dont want to right ?

thanks to those who told me its okay. but i know its not.

you all wont understand how it feels like. to be constantly under everyone's stares.
be it teachers, peers, schoolmates and even principal.
people who expect you to do well and better than the others, and are always on the look out for you. even after i've stepped down.
also the people that stick to you when you are of useable value to them and stay clear when they are done.
i very well know when they do that, its just that i choose to keep quiet and forget about it cos i know sometimes people just cant control.

i know i may sound sian or not the usual me in my text sometimes, but hey, i get upset too right ? i'm only human, just like you. you can dont reply or give attitude when you are down, and i can sense that so i'll ask if you are alright, and even ask if you need me to pei you. i try so hard to reply when your texts are like unreplyable, like just answering my questions and all, and it feels like you are just replying for the sake of replying.

life will still go on without you, so if i'm really that insignificant to you, then maybe i wouldnt participate so much in your life anymore cos my abscence wont even affect you one bit and i dont want to one day become a problem to you. i can channel my time to something else then. if you want me to.

and to you, thank you alot. i know you always try to cheer me up and always know when i'm upset/when i dont even know i'm upset. haha. but thanks for your encouragements and everything. it really helps sometimes (:

school's been fun. think when everything ends, i'll really miss my class alot :/
miss tchoukball even more. i really really reeeeeeeeeally want to play ! maybe will go back during holidays or sth.
miss my 32nds MOST. really miss you guys loads. ):

6 more months yimei ! really have to study hard now.

lets start on sgc now. gogogo~

P.S. thats all i have to say.

:D

2010-05-09T12:46:00.000+08:00

This week's been hectic idk why. Just feel v busy. Haha.
Played ball with the girls that day and I totally lost most of my ball sense ): upset. But still fun ! Catch up session and htht. Hehe.

Tchoukball is fun fun fun ! Can't wait for next training :D why can't we play tchoukball during pe :/

Went for mama day dinner ytd after college day. They even gave flowers to the mummys. My mummy like happy like totally. Hahaha.

Totally (: ytd. Awesome day, great friends, council, family, no homework, got idiot make me smile. Hahaha. :D If only everyday can be like that.

P.S. You're my sunshine after the rain (:

Fragile.

2010-05-02T16:20:00.000+08:00

This is how fragile life is. Treasure all that you have now, don't waste time on meaningless stuffs. Treat everyone right, or the next moment, you'll never know when they'll be gone.

P.S lettting go now. Today. 020510

When I can't control anymore.

2010-04-25T22:26:00.001+08:00

Without U

I'm gonna be strong

Fine, breaking up is better
This was going to happen between us anyway
You were going to do this anyway
This is better, better than falling deeper in love anyway
I think of it as fortunate, that's why I'm okay

I gave you all my all
I believed you so I gave you my all
But you threw that away
I gave you my everything
So I'm gonna be okay

I'm gonna be okay
I'll be okay
Gonna be okay
Baby without you
Without you
Baby without you
Without you

Without you, I'll be cooler
More cooler
I'm going to stand up
Without you
I'll live on
Without you

Listen, everything happens for a reason
Everything happens for a reason
This is the last time you'll meet another man
Your words don't even make sense
Just turn around
It hurts me too much
I don't want to see you anymore

I was being fooled all this while
I didn't even know who you were
But I know now
You don't know love
So that's why I'm gonna be okay

Gonna be okay
I'll be okay
Gonna be okay
Baby without you
Without you
Baby without you
Without you

Without you, I'll be cooler
More cooler
I'm going to stand up
Without you
I'll live on
Without you

Why are you doing this to me, why?
Why do you have to do this to me, make me cry?
Was it enough to throw everything we had?
All of the times we were together
And the times we can never be together again
Aren't they wasteful, to you?
Does it not matter to you?
Even now, are you okay without me?

I'm gonna be okay
Gonna be okay
I'll be okay
Gonna be okay
Baby without you
Without you
Baby without you
Without you

Without you, I'll be cooler
More cooler
I'm going to stand up
Without you
I'll live on
Without you

P.S. I should break out of my dependancy on you. Everything's gonna be better without you.

Interruption.

2010-04-11T13:57:00.000+08:00

黄义达 - 既然你问起

既然你问我
重点已不在我快不快乐
后来的事其实不必多说
心疼的是他对你好冷漠

时间粉落如雪落
心里的火还为你执着
叫我如何不再难过
当初我
不就是现在的你
在听候发落

爱并没有对错
我痛过总算一点一点的懂得
你是自由的
不必只属于我
我怎能不难过
你哭了但妳要的安慰不是我
爱不自由的
当爱得比较多

爱并没有对错
我明白迟来先到的没有因果
你是自由的
不必只属于我
我怎能不难过
你哭了但你要安慰的不是我
只要他一个
胜过一百个我
既然你问我
你问起我

Conclusion.

2010-04-04T13:38:00.001+08:00

Turns out in the end that you don't care do you ?

Again&again.

P.S. When crossing your fingers doesn't work anymore.

LOL !

2010-04-01T20:59:00.003+08:00

bored waiting for eileen and lim xi to send me stuff. so shall do this thing i was tagged in 10000000 years ago. HAHA.

this is so childish, but suddenly got feel to do. hehe.

My type of boys (LOL cant believe i'm really doing this. HAHAHAHAHA.)

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
must be pleasent looking at least ? haha.

2. Smart?
not a must.

3. Preferred age?
older than meeeeeeeee. meaning older than oct 1992 all can. (:

4. Preferred height?
170 at least ! 180 is awesome. hahahaha.

5. How about sense of humor?
YES.

6. How about piercings?
can have on ears (: haha.

7. Accepts you for who you are?
yupzxzxzx of coursezxzxzxzxz.

8. Pink hair?
._.

9. Mushy or no?
know the limit ?

10. Thin or fat?
average. not the extremes ! best if got nice build hahahahahahahahaha. x)

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
brownnnnnnnn.

12. Long hair or short hair?
idk why but i'm attracted to guys with abit spiky, long fringe kind. LOL.

13. Plastic or metal?
heh ?

14. Smells good?
kinda. but i smell good alr. HAHA.

15. Smoker?
NO.

16. Drinker?
NO. not too over. hehe.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
fine with that.

18. Muscular?
just enough for him will do (:

19. Plays piano?
awesomeeeee. its a bonus :D

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
i can play guitar, so it doesnt matter.

21. Plays violin?
anything.

22. Sings very good?
its alright.

23. Vain?
who isnt ?

24. With glasses?
depends on face ? lol !

25. With braces?
it'll be off one day (:

26. Shy type?
all act shy one please !

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
middle range !

28. Active or passive?
active

29. Tight or bomb??
huh ?!

30. Singer or dancer?
i like to see guys dance ! hahaha. :DD

31. Stunner??
doesnt have to.

32. Hiphop?
rapper yo.

33. Earrings?
studs.

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girl/boyfriends-until-you-drop?
depends ?

35. Dimples?
YEAH. lol ! not a must, but i've always thought guys with dimples are cute. not all but mostly x)

36. Bookworm?
okay with it.

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
thats pretty cool.

38. Playful?
(:

39. Flirt?
): i get paranoid easily.

40. Poem writer?
no need lah please.

41. Serious?
at the right times.

42. Campus crush?
doesnt have to !

43. Painter?
for what.

44. Religious?
not too over.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
cannot be too overboard.

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
neither.

47. Speaks 20 languages?
LOL. for what my god. like he speak indian to me i can understand like that.

48. Loyal or faithful?
both ! hehe. greedy.

49. Good kisser?
not a must ?

50. loves children??
doesnt have to.

_____________________________________

LOL LOL LOL.

i think i'm seriously lame.
cannot take it. why go do this kind of thing. hahahahahahahahha.

BUAIX.

P.S. running out of things to say. :/

Time to wake up.

2010-03-24T20:44:00.000+08:00

I could only watch as you disappear into the crowd.

yimeeeeeeeeei.

2010-03-16T21:34:00.003+08:00

sometimes i really wonder.
just what do i mean to you ?

someone who will track your every movement and will get there whenever you want me to ?
or a friend you treasure ? i really hate it when i get there and you keep texting those girls. not jealous but wondering what you really think, what you see them as. why not ask them to find you instead of me since you text them so much ? do i not have dignity like them ?
i feel like a replacement, someone unimportant and last on your list.
and it really sucks. cos it hurts.
___________________________________________

council camp on thurs !
lets do it 32nd.
we're the best. (:

P.S. i think i know.

Karma.

2010-03-08T22:38:00.001+08:00

So what if you are ?
Does that give you the right to do so ?

Cos what goes around comes around.
It'll be your turn someday.

And lastly. I don't find it funny.
It's really mean, she doesn't have a choice.
Meanies. Put yourself in other's shoes will you ?

Perhaps

2010-03-05T00:41:00.001+08:00

Crop up with work.
Can't wait for council camp !
The one tmrw will go smoothly(: I just know it will. Haha.

Cos I know I can never be like that.
Sacrificing others to get what I want.
There's no way i'll be able to do it like you.

Not reality ? Suppose so.

강산.

2010-03-02T21:57:00.000+08:00

당신을 사랑합니다. 당신.

Childish.

2010-03-01T22:42:00.000+08:00

I feel like a fish out of the water.

12.08am

2010-03-01T00:06:00.001+08:00

Cos sometimes it hurts so bad I forgot how to breathe.

Sunshine.

2010-02-24T00:13:00.001+08:00

I keep running, but each time when I got closer, you seem further.
Further and further.
Until I could no longer see you or feel you anymore.

Studyyyyyy !

2010-02-23T14:45:00.001+08:00

Really need to catch up for school work ):
I'm lagging behind like craaaazy.
Someone help me.

): afraid about A's.

Tmrw got econs test ftw ! Ahhhhhh.
Childish kids. If you all don't want join us then it's alright, but there's no need to do all those things. We have the people we need.
You most prob dont have what it takes and cannot handle the work anywayyyyy.
It's your loss ! Not mine(: trust me.

P.S mugging muggers.

2010-02-16T17:07:00.001+08:00

Cny's kinda boring this year. Zzz. Should have went tricia's house today but apparently parents didn't let and drove me home.

Where is justice ! :<

So now I'm stuck at home trying to digest all the fats from cny.
Omg. No wonder slimming centers love cny !

Napfa soon ! Need to go run slr. Shall go down and run later.

Tata ! Enjoy the rest of new year while you can you whole load of lucky bastards ! Lol !

P.S I wish life was more simple.

sleepy !

2010-02-13T17:26:00.004+08:00

why am i feeling sleepy in the middle of the day. i seriously dont know.

sigh. i feel like crap actually. feel like i'm being tied up and lost all the confidence i have. urgh.

_____________________________

went out with wilmer tay, johner tham and meiyi ytd !

(: cos wilmer and johner wanted to buy clothes then just randomly we just went out.

haha. pretty random but it was seriously an enjoyable day.

we still went to watch percy jackson until 12am !

the movie's niceeeeeeeeee, should go catch it if you have time.

should stop myself from munching on new year stuffs ! ahhhhhhhhh.

fats fats fats.

i know what i'm thinking now. i've got my directions clear, targets set and priorities set straight infront of me.

&thats all i'm gonna follow for this year. and nothings gonna make me change track. not even the slightest bit.

so you know what, i realise i dont care anymore. cos i've learnt to set aside and shut out meaningless and unimportant stuffs. like you.

photo of the dayyyy ! :D

yay hongki !

P.S. disappointed by all that i've seen. cos everything you do, you still chose to prove them right.

Hey there.

2010-02-12T11:00:00.001+08:00

I can't concentrate. Arghhhh.
Really need to get down to serious work. I can't afford to laze around anymore.
But sometimes I'm just tired.
________________________

Couldn't stay back to play with 32nds today ! ):
Ytd's council session with the J1s were awesome fun.
I know they'll be a great batch of successors and juniors(:

Only 99days left to end of our council journey.
99days. Let's not waste anymore time, even though we really can't bear to let go.
32nd student council ftw !
PRESTIGIOUS. Haha. :D
We will be legends.

P.S. Cos i can't get into your head and know what you're thinking right ?!

I don't understand.

2010-02-08T00:09:00.001+08:00

Life seems like a screwed up tape nowadays.
Things just keep playing back, letting me experience them all over again.

Fine. I'm just having the Monday blues.
Sigh. Weekend come fast fast !

P.S without words.

orientation !

2010-02-07T01:12:00.003+08:00

orientation 2010 was a total success !
all the planning and hardwork was worth it. :D
GOOD JOB OPA AND 32ND ! damn proud of you all.
you all have grown so much over this period of time, and we definitely got closer like a family. (:

first day was not much to be done, cos of all the admin talk and stuff.
but 2nd day at sentosa was like awesome ! :DD
we had plenty of sun and tan lines and i totally enjoyed walking around spamming points. hehe.
the J1s were damn enthu and fun loving. think they will be a great batch of juniors as long as they can give us some space during breaks and not take up the whole canteen ! lol.
aaaaaaaaaaanyway. sentosa was a blast, enjoyed myself even though i got kidnapped under some shelters with the J1s to give them points. lie zhanhao and rahrah's group.
make me stand there listen to their cheers and extort points from me. hahaha.

i really liked connor's cheers though ! like really creative and all.
yancey 1 is really cute, with their *cluck* :D
and the junker 6 ? cant remember what og but they had this kiss thing too. haha !
nova's cheers were really awesome, super funny, laughed like crazy during their practice.
yancey is like those crazy crazy kind where they get really high at random times. LOL !
junkers were really loud ! the people are like enthu and fun, always smiling when they walk past me.
connors are the unexpected but always v happy and enthu and plenty of surprises kind. super entertaining. haha !

third day was GM for the 200s no NG station.
really learned alot esp during the debrief, went home to reflect and think about what they said.

fourth day wet games !
got shot like crazy by asmond and his friend. then shaun, daryl, milly and lance also super hiong ! all zham me with the whole bucket of water D: hahahahaha.
lucky i got my ultra ultimate water gun. whoooo~
disco night was the highlight of course, even though it was short but i hope everyone enjoyed it(:
thank you to all who made this possible, my 32nd, ava, red cross, photography, CNNY, and of course, my OGL !

feel v free and much much relaxed now that orientation's over ! really miss it though. and i really wanted to be a ogl. ): i want a og and ogms ! sigh.
really looking forward to the new batch of councils now.
i've got high hopes for them, think they'll be a batch that can do well. (:

got back to lessons and realise i totally dont understand a single crap.
no diff from sleeping through the whole lecture. -.-

jiayou 32nd ! lets treasure what we have nowwwww.

P.S. UP - BEYOND LIMITS.

stuck at home.

2010-01-24T17:09:00.003+08:00

STAYING AT HOME DOING GEOG LIKE OHMYGAWDZXZXZXZXZX.

what the hell am i thinking !
maybe i'll run to sentosa to join them later on.
awesome.

i dont know whats wrong with my printer. grozz. make me pissed. >:(
we finished packing 1000 packs of orientation packs ytd !
stayed in school until like around 10pm to finish packing.
was in school since 8am okay !
@#$*#$*^@$@#$

stayed up until 7am last night to finish slides for monday.
cos my deadline was 7am. -.-
what kind of timing is that ?! thanks seriously.

argh. i think i'm getting cranky.
not enough sleep.
keep ranting about alot of things. BYE.

4 MORE DAYS TO ORIENTATION.

P.S i seriously hate it when someone text a "ok". what do you expect me to reply ? zzz. -.-

FREEDOM.

2010-01-22T12:18:00.002+08:00

finally blocks are O-V-E-R.
okay they were over on weds for me.
but its like frigging happy cos life seriously sucked when you have to study like hell even though school just started.
i still went back to school to wish them lucks for chem paper okay ! (: aint i kind. LOOOOOOL.
even though i ended up laughing at them.
hahaha.

stayed in council room and watched gossip girls with clarrie while the others mug for their last paper.
they went for dinner and i went kovan to meet smart kid and helped him buy pen ink.
his paper A alr lah ! i buy the ink leh ! hahaha.

counting down to orientation ! its like. 7 days away ? x(

P.S. treasuring my days left in college more and more.

shag.

2010-01-13T20:49:00.004+08:00

first day of school today was alright.
ytd's open house was awesome ! haha.
really good job to both house exco and 32nd ! (:

OPA went to meet mr kwek and ms ng to discuss about orientation just now.
everything's coming along smoothly and getting more and more visible.
just hope he wouldnt change his mind halfway like he always does.

kind of having the olevels feeling again though. just that this time its worse. :/
block test next week = big fat U.
yeah i know partly i'm lazy, but when i want to study there aint enough time for me to do so.
sigh. life sucks !

kaixi suggested that day maybe me&ah kor can go play for them if they dont have enough people.
was thinking about it on the way home today.
kind of a random thought but i really want to play and train.
&also, i'll play if they give me jersey number 7. (:
but alas, still have to see how orientation and studies first.
right now studies and council comes before anything.
i really treasure every single one of my 32nd and the cca as a whole.
they are really my motivation and drive at times, esp when you cant find a reason to carry on.

kind of contridicting since i'm always so tense and stressed up and cant do well cos of council, but yeah. you wouldnt understand unless you are part of it. haha.

missing my bballers loads. arghhhhhhhhh ! :<

block test's a piece of rock ! blah.

P.S. 不懂得道歉我没那么聪明。
就让我等就算我冷至少我陪着你.

wheeee. :D

2010-01-11T23:03:00.003+08:00

remind me to follow kaixi when she goes to take her pay next time. haha !
________________________________

you made my day ! wheeee~ :D

anyway, think my juniors are really smart cos alot of them got like 8, 9 or 11 raw.
was wondering. what could have been different if i had gotten a 8 or 7, or sth that can get me into vjc or njc ?
or if i had gotten more than that and i chose poly.
not that i'm unhappy with anything. just kinda wondering.
if i hadnt come ny, alot of things would have been different.
things that i never want to leave and things i really want to get rid of real badly.

P.S. arghhhhhh. sucks totally. ):

scared and tired.

2010-01-09T00:40:00.003+08:00

19 DAYS TO ORIENTATION 2010 !
___________________________

love meeting up with seniors. (:

havent been coming home for dinner for a long long time.
really long.
think not just mum, but daddy is angry too.
feel kind of guilty and all. its not that i dont want to talk at home.
but i dont know what and how to phrase my words.
if they come out wrong then you'll get more upset. yet i cant do anything.
correction. perhaps its me not making an effort to do anything.

sigh. give me a wishing star.
i want to make a wish. now.

block test's a total bitch. timetable's screwed. homework is crap.
i dont know whats right in my life right now.
help me set it straight will you ?

P.S. ghost of the past.

council retreat ! (:

2010-01-05T20:09:00.002+08:00

council retreat was awesome shitzxzxzxzxz.
hahahaha. fun like mad ! :D
even though at times quite irritating cos like we cant go out play and all at night, but being able to spend time with 32nd is enough to make me happy seriously. (:
first day was fruitful, with all the talks and all.
second day was fun and joy. played loads of games.
i was the sole survivor for the step on your friend's balloon game !
hehe. sorry lah clarrie dont keep cursing me okay ! lol.

going to write my script and prepare for tmrw's 9min ppt presentation. ):

cant wait for show luo's new album !

习惯就好

你的手机又收不到
我像疯子在街上绕
努力跑，你的温度
雨淋过几条街都散不掉

你面无表情的嘴角
像在嘲笑我的胡闹
回头看，突然明了
爱过了使用期效你就想逃
我想维持礼貌忘记骄傲
继续做你唯一的城堡

习惯就好，习惯就好
是我选择看不到分手预兆
没有一丝睡意的困扰无法治疗
习惯就好，习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒

awesome lyrics seriously.

P.S. 习惯就好.

things you'll never know.

2009-12-29T22:58:00.002+08:00

不看，不听，不说。

P.S finally i understood what's happening !

o.o

2009-12-27T13:16:00.000+08:00

i dont know.

P.S. huh ?

happy christmas !

2009-12-25T00:05:00.001+08:00

HAPPY CHRISTMAS ! :D

should have expected.

2009-12-24T23:46:00.005+08:00

its sth i should have known from the start.
sth i should have expected.
its not surprising, but it matters.
its all coming back again.
all. over. again.

i want to ~~hide~~.
in a place where all these will never be brought up again.
where i wouldnt be found.
where i'd be away from everything. ~~you~~.

P.S. i wish you'd give me some kind of assurance. sth to get me away from this horrible feeling.

._.

2009-12-23T22:00:00.002+08:00

ogl workshop part 1 was over on monday ! (:
was successful if i must say.
really proud of the 32nd and the ogls. :D

had GREAT fun. hahaha.
havent had been so happy in ages.
esp now outings with bballers are rare. ):
really miss those crazy zhss days, no matter how much we claim to hate zhonghua, but we really do love it.
will find a way or another to go back to zhonghua on results release day.
the only time when we'll all go back. (:

watched avatar with the 32nd ytd !
hadnt watch such a nice movie for a long long time.
its really awesome, the effects and all.
should have watched 3D. shucks. but hello, since when can you find 3D movies in jubilee.
LOL. we had to go jubilee cos tickets at other places were all sold out. flat.
and with xinyu on my left and clarrie on my right, one keep shouting "BIRD BIRD BIRD" one "DRAGON DRAGON DRAGON", i still enjoyed the movie. haha.

after that went macs with cai mao and ziyuan to study and wait for weikit to go for tuition.
tuition was a total o.o cos the teacher goes on and on with speed equivalent to the speed of light and before i know whats going on she moves on to the next question. -.-
dinner-ed after that and home ! finally. (:

went ben chua's house with pipi, weikit and ziyuan today !
ziyuan left early. was SUPPOSE to do work. but apprently didnt.
haha. okay, at least i did 2 questions of MI ! with 1 not proven. -.-
they went to swim and i got splashed even though i didnt swim.
left at around 6plus cos ben was late for his movies with his parents.

boring life, boring days, bored ttm.
something's got to happen to spruce it up. please please please.
looking forward to some church thing with diggory tmrw though. :D
diggory ftw !

P.S. i hope this feeling will never ever go away. :D :D :D

full stop.

2009-12-18T22:19:00.004+08:00

i really feel lost with sometimes.
you make me speechless, stumped and leave me with that empty feeling.
but at times its another thing all together.
i dont know how to face it. or whether i want to face it.
urgh. just forget it.

P.S. i wish i didnt.