i know i'm this is a damn stupid reason to feel unhappy but i also dont know why lah !
i know its in the past. but. urgh, cant figure out whats wrong with me.
maybe its cos i dont think the same thing happened for me ?

I DONT KNOW MY GOD WHY ARE ALL THESE THINGS FILLING UP MY ALREADY MEMORY FULL EXPLODING SOON HEAD.

i need to focus, focus, focus.
was really depress ytd cos mr leong keep suaning me in class.
thanks alot ah leong, rubbing salt to my already ultra deep wound.
i just cant do well in maths. maybe i'm not putting enough effort but i just cant do well.
not like i dont want to right ?

thanks to those who told me its okay. but i know its not.

you all wont understand how it feels like. to be constantly under everyone's stares.
be it teachers, peers, schoolmates and even principal.
people who expect you to do well and better than the others, and are always on the look out for you. even after i've stepped down.
also the people that stick to you when you are of useable value to them and stay clear when they are done.
i very well know when they do that, its just that i choose to keep quiet and forget about it cos i know sometimes people just cant control.

i know i may sound sian or not the usual me in my text sometimes, but hey, i get upset too right ? i'm only human, just like you. you can dont reply or give attitude when you are down, and i can sense that so i'll ask if you are alright, and even ask if you need me to pei you. i try so hard to reply when your texts are like unreplyable, like just answering my questions and all, and it feels like you are just replying for the sake of replying.

life will still go on without you, so if i'm really that insignificant to you, then maybe i wouldnt participate so much in your life anymore cos my abscence wont even affect you one bit and i dont want to one day become a problem to you. i can channel my time to something else then. if you want me to.

and to you, thank you alot. i know you always try to cheer me up and always know when i'm upset/when i dont even know i'm upset. haha. but thanks for your encouragements and everything. it really helps sometimes (:

school's been fun. think when everything ends, i'll really miss my class alot :/
miss tchoukball even more. i really really reeeeeeeeeally want to play ! maybe will go back during holidays or sth.
miss my 32nds MOST. really miss you guys loads. ):

6 more months yimei ! really have to study hard now.

lets start on sgc now. gogogo~

P.S. thats all i have to say.

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This week's been hectic idk why. Just feel v busy. Haha.
Played ball with the girls that day and I totally lost most of my ball sense ): upset. But still fun ! Catch up session and htht. Hehe.

Tchoukball is fun fun fun ! Can't wait for next training :D why can't we play tchoukball during pe :/

Went for mama day dinner ytd after college day. They even gave flowers to the mummys. My mummy like happy like totally. Hahaha.

Totally (: ytd. Awesome day, great friends, council, family, no homework, got idiot make me smile. Hahaha. :D If only everyday can be like that.

P.S. You're my sunshine after the rain (:

This is how fragile life is. Treasure all that you have now, don't waste time on meaningless stuffs. Treat everyone right, or the next moment, you'll never know when they'll be gone.

P.S lettting go now. Today. 020510