Looks like you really found the one you are looking for this time round.
Hope you'll be happy. That's the last thing I can ask for from you.
I know you'll be.

though I'm still disappointed about yesterday. You clearly forgot about 30th may. :/ why would you anyway. You already have another special date with someone else. Sigh.

Labels: goodbye.

Match should be over now.

Hope it went well and nothing happened to you.
Didn't go. Still trying to run away.
Still running.





From you.

Labels: cos the more I see you the longer it'll take.

Cos talking to you feels so different now :/ all the awkward pauses and silence. Hate it yet can't do anything about it. Just ain't like before. Just isn't the same :(

Labels: I miss the old us.

What used to be a happy video now breaks me into a million pieces.

I miss you, me, us. The us one month ago.

Labels: why did things have to change ?

Just the thought of you staying up late to talk to another her makes my heart wrench and stomach cringe so much it hurts. Thinking how it used to be us pains me even more.

Why is it so easy for you ? Why does it seem like you can so effortlessly forget me and throw me aside ? Am I really that insignificant ?

It hurts because you ended it all so abruptly, when I just started getting used to you, thought everything was fine, then suddenly bam and you were gone. No replies no nothing. I didn't even know what happened.

And now because there wasn't a proper ending, you leave me here, hanging, falling :'(

I'm sorry, if its cos I probe too much into your life, been too paranoid about you with other girls, I'm really sorry. I know it was stupid and redundant.

If only things can be like before again. I'd give anything for things to go back to before. Cos I miss you and I really wish I could be there esp the past few days when you were down. I typed so many texts, ready to be sent out, but eventually it all got backspaced. All because i was too cowardy, i was afraid. And i regretted, cos i really wanted to cheer you up if i could. Just like the letter i took back. I'm just a stupid coward :( but i miss you. Really do. :(((((

Hope she can make you laugh now. Hope she can make your day, make you happy.

Hate it when I lose a close friend like you :( urgh D:

Labels: I think this will just be another post where I'll look back and laugh at myself for being so stupid.

I know, I can feel that this is coming to an end and we won't be like how we used to be anymore. All those meet ups we had that I know I'll never forget, late night conversations on the phone, chats till someone falls asleep, texts we exchanged, it will be over soon.

It will be because I'm leaving, I won't be there till 6am anymore, won't be there to hear you play your guitar, won't be there to fall asleep and wait for your phonecall, won't be there to give you morning calls, won't be there to be late for breakfast, won't be there to tickle your arms, won't be there to buy you strepsils for your performance, won't be there to laugh at the straw hats we bought, won't be there to play situational games, won't be there to go all the way to your house then cab home, won't be there to walk all the shortest routes with you or circle round the same area for 78461582 times, won't be there to threaten you to put your pikachu into milo's cage, won't be there at red mountain, won't be there to stop you from doing things that'll injured yourself, won't be there to annoy you, won't be there to make your day, won't be there for everything and so many more things.

Not that I don't want to stay, you don't know how much I want to be doing those things I said above, every single day, but it seems like you are getting bored and everything I do, every text I send seems to be making you tired instead of the other way round, I dont want you to talk to me cos you have to, but because cos you want to. There's still so many things I wanted to do with you, going to USS, going jamming, seeing you perform, let you see Milo, see your coco, challenge level 30 buffalo wings, competing on NBA. But it's all never gonna happen now. :/

I really don't know what happened, whether it's cos I did sth wrong or because of sth I said, whether im not good enough, or whether it's you running away or simply just because you just got tired of this, tired of me, I never got to get an explanation.

But I'm really gonna miss you and all those times. I know I will. will you ?

Sigh.

Labels: maybe someday.

On the same road, at the same place. Just different timing, but everything's changed, it's all over. Didn't even get the chance to say a proper goodbye.

Labels: it's like not even knowing how you died but you just did.

Funny how fast things can change ain't it ?

Why am I always the one who gets played ? :'(

This is effing painful.

I wished you’d open up. I wish you’d tell me or even anyone about your problems, share the burden, make you feel better. It’s hard to see you like that, always happy on the front but I know deep inside you’ve got so many problems you are suffocating.

I dont know why, I swear I have no idea why. But it actually kinda hurts to see you like that :/ and I can’t continue to be all laughing and joking with you, when I know late at night when you’re all alone, you’re gonna face it yourself and let it haunt it you over and over again.

You’re not alone. You know that right ?

P.S. What can I do to make you smile ? :/

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